Guest jessicaksu125 Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 (edited) I can't see or think straight. I made dinner but let Lizzie eat it. I am so devastated. I'm writing this knowing the risk that I can't edit tomorrow, but it needs to get out of my system. This afternoon I lost more than a best friend, I lost the only being on this earth who ever really knew and understood me. About a month ago I found out Gigi, who was 6 1/2, had lymphoma. It's all a blur now. The meds didn't work. Chemo cost more than I could afford, and it wouldn't have bought her much time anyway. She got worse quickly. This morning I went to give her some people food -- I've been cooking for her for a week since I knew her time was almost up. Yesterday she had scarfed up her ground beef, rice and carrots. Today she took one bite, chewed as if to say "see mom I tried" and slinked away. I took her out. After two houses she wanted to go back inside. She went upstairs to lay down on a pile of my dirty clothes. I cleaned my kitchen. She was still there. I took a shower. She was still there. Without even stopping to get dressed I layed down on the floor with her and immediately started bawling. She was trembling. She's lost 5 pounds in 3 weeks and she's nothing more than a skeleton. I looked into her eyes and saw darkness. I called the e-vet. I couldn't stop crying on the way to the vet. I could hardly spell my name and address for the vet. I brought in her bed, and sat down on the floor with Gigi and sobbed. I said goodbye. She left this earth peacefully. I held her warm body as if we were just cuddling and watching TV, siting on the floor because she says it's to warm to lie up on the couch. I apologized to her. Despite what everyone tells me I still feel like there was something I could have done to help her. I tried to close her eyes but they wouldn't shut. I love this girl. There are a lot of dogs who will gladly curl up next to you when you are sad. There are only a few that will do that when the time is right, but they also know that sometimes what you really need is for them to pound on the floor with their front paws and bark at you until you get up and play tug until the stuffy rips in half. Most of the time that's all I needed. That's the bond I had with Gigi that I never had with Lizzie. But today, Lizzie seemed to know what to do. Usually if I went out with Gigi and not Lizzie I'd come back to an accusatory "where have you been" nose in the crotch. Today I came in carrying just Gigi's leash and collar. Miss Lizzie scampered across the room, tail wagging and nearly crashing into the wall. She brought me one of those long squeak toys. I grabbed one end, and she clamped down on the other for dear life. She won that round and I chased her around the apartment before round 2. She hasn't left my side all night. I'll post more to this thread when I am more coherent. I haven't slept in a week due to Gigi's problems. I hope I can catch a few winks tonight. Edited September 5, 2011 by jessicaksu125 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
o_rooly Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 No words. Gigi was such a fortunate girl.. :heart Quote every day a tiny adventure. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cully Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 (edited) Run free sweet baby. Edited September 5, 2011 by Cully Quote waiting at the bridge Connie Van Teddy & Jojo, Cobra Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LakeshoreGreys Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 Haven't seen you on here in a while! So sorry to hear about Gigi. Cancer has taken so many of our beloved hounds. She has good company where she is now. Godspeed, girlie! And hugs to you! Quote Sara formerly on Greytalk as Mommyof3Gone, but still part of our family and always in our hearts:Bruiser Isa Comander To 6/23/91-11/20/03 Sandy NSK Special Up 10/19/89-6/13/04 Beau Bdk's Boo Boo 1/1/93-12/15/06 Cooney Lars Dbltakedean 11/1/93-1/23/07Buddy 2/9/1997-11/16/09 Joe Elkhart Joe 11/7/99-12/2/10 Alex Streakin Diablo 4/17/02-4/1/11 Brother Hylife Brother 9/26/97-2/28/12 Comanche Gil's Comanche 6/7/2005-11/7/2015 Molly 4/8/2011-4/13/2018 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
maryz Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 I'm so sorry you had to say goodbye to your beautiful girl. She sounds like she was meant to be yours and no one else's. Godspeed, Gigi. Quote Mary, mom to kitty Rebel.Always missing Sherri (SO DELICIOUS) (12/6/2005-8/29/2018) kitties Marley (4/2000-12/3/2015) and Beady (4/1998-2/24/2006) and Dalmatian Daisy (7/25/1984-5/13/1999). The democracy will cease to exist when you take away from those who are willing to work and give to those who would not - Thomas Jefferson Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dobelvr Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 Very sorry for your loss Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Houndtime Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 I am so sorry for your loss. Gigi was such a special girl. Say not in grief, "he is no more," but live in thankfulness that he was. ~ Hebrew proverb Quote Irene Ullmann w/Flying Odin and Mama Mia in Lower Delaware Angels Brandy, John E, American Idol, Paul, Fuzzy and Shine Handcrafted Greyhound and Custom Clocks http://www.houndtime.com Zoom Doggies-Racing Coats for Racing Greyhounds Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Busderpuddle Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 I can tell how much you loved your special girl. I am sorry for your loss. Quote Karen Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheFullHouse Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 I'm so very sorry for your loss. Rest well little one. Quote Judy, mom to Darth Vader, Bandita, And Angel Forever in our hearts, DeeYoGee, Dani, Emmy, Andy, Heart, Saint, Valentino, Arrow, Gee, Bebe, Jilly Bean, Bullitt, Pistol, Junior, Sammie, Joey, Gizmo, Do Bee Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest MorganKonaAlex Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 I'm so sorry. I remember reading about Gigi. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest greyhoundgirl1 Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 So sorry to hear about Gigi. I lost my wonderful boy to Lymphoma back in May. Don't beat yourself up over it. I tried part of the chemo thing to no avail. You did the right thing for her. Hopefully they will someday come up with a cure so that we don't lose so many of our beautiful and stoic hounds to such an insidious disease. My heart goes out to you, but know it does get easier and she will always be part of your wonderful memories. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MerlinsMum Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 (edited) :cry1 My heart sank long and deep when I saw this thread. I thought she may have had a bit more time... She didn't. I am so terribly sorry, Jessica. I will never forget Gigi; she was such a character. I remember how your pretty girl made me laugh when she came to playgroup and did her twirls. I feel honored to have met her and to have even had the pleasure of dog-sitting her once. But no one knew her the way you knew her. You went through a lot together, and I know she has left an indelible mark on your heart. Be gentle and kind to yourself, and give yourself time to grieve her terrible loss. I hope that one day, in the not-too-distant future, thinking of her will bring more smiles than pain. But it is not today... Today, hold on tight to your Lizzie, and lean on us for support. Rest in peace, Gigi. Edited September 5, 2011 by MerlinsMum Quote Kerry with Lupin in beautiful coastal Maine. Missing Pippin, my best friend and sweet little heart-healer 2013-2023 Also missing the best wizard in the world, Merlin, and my sweet 80lb limpet, Sagan, every single day. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
greysmom Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 I'm so sorry..................................... Quote Chris - Mom to: Felicity (DeLand), and Andi (Braska Pandora) siggy by Chris Harper, on Flickr Angels: Libby (Everlast), Dorie (Dog Gone Holly), Dude (TNJ VooDoo), Copper (Kid's Copper), Cash (GSI Payncash), Toni (LPH Cry Baby), Whiskey (KT's Phys Ed), Atom, Lilly Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sabrina Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 Sorry for you loss of Gigi & to you on this very sad night Quote Caroline, Mom to Daphne (49B-50215) and Penny (41D-55779)Remembering Bridge Angels Margo and Sabrina Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
macoduck Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 In the depths of your pain Jessica, you still can write so eloquently about Gigi. I still remember with amusement your tales of when you first got her. She was here so briefly for a reason you may never fathom, yet she may have passed the key to making her mom happy on to Lizzie. I lost one quickly to lymphoma too. I'm sorry your girl has left you. You were a good mom to her. Quote Freshy (Droopys Fresh), NoAh the podenco orito, Howie the portuguese podengo maneto Angels: Rita the podenco maneta, Lila, the podenco, Mr X aka Denali, Lulu the podenco andaluz, Hada the podenco maneta, Georgie Girl (UMR Cordella), Charlie the iggy, Mazy (CBR Crazy Girl), Potato, my mystery ibizan girl, Allen (M's Pretty Boy), Percy (Fast But True), Mikey (Doray's Patuti), Pudge le mutt, Tessa the iggy, Possum (Apostle), Gracie (Dusty Lady), Harold (Slatex Harold), "Cousin" Simon our step-iggy, Little Dude the iggy ,Bandit (Bb Blue Jay), Niña the galgo, Wally (Allen Hogg), Thane (Pog Mo Thoine), Oliver (JJ Special Agent), Comet, & Rosie our original mutt. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MarcR Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 I'm so sorry. I remember when you and Gigi first came to GT. She truly was a special girl. Quote Marc and Myun plus Starbuck (the cat)Pinky my AWOL girl, wherever you are, I miss you.Angels Honey (6/30/99-11/3/11) Nadia (5/11/99-6/4/12) Kara (6/5/99-7/17/12) Cleo (4/13/2000-4/19/2014) Antnee (12/1/2002=2/20/17) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
retiredracers Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 I'm so very sorry. Quote Elphie, Kulee, Amanda, Harmony, Alex (hound mix), Phantom, Norbet, Willis (dsh), Autumn (Siamese) & Max (OSH) & mama rat, LaLa & baby Poppy! My bridge kids: Crooke & Mouse (always in my heart), Flake, Buzz, Snake, Prince (GSD), Justin & Gentry (Siamese), Belle (Aussie/Dalmatian mix), Rupert (amstaff) and Fred, Sirius, Severus, Albus, George, Hagrid, Hermione, Minerva, Marilyn, Wren, Molly, Luna, Tonks, Fleur, Ginny, Neville, Bill, Percy, Rose & Charlie (rats) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GreyPoopon Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 I'm so very sorry. Your precious girl had to leave much too soon. I hope Lizzie continues to help. Godspeed Gigi. Quote Standard Poodle Daisy (12/13) Missing Cora (RL Nevada 5/99-10/09), Piper (Cee Bar Easy 2/99-1/10), Tally (Thunder La La 9/99-3/10), Edie (Daring Reva 9/99-10/12), Dixie (Kiowa Secret Sue 11/01-1/13), Jessie (P's Real Time 11/98-3/13), token boy Graham (Zydeco Dancer 9/00-5/13), Cal (Back Already 12/99-11/13), Betsy (Back Kick Beth 11/98-12/13), Standard Poodles Minnie (1/99-1/14) + Perry (9/98-2/14), Annie (Do Marcia 9/03-10/14), Pink (Miss Pinky Baker 1/02-6/15), Poppy (Cmon Err Not 8/05-1/16), Kat (Jax Candy 5/05-5/17), Ivy (Jax Isis 10/07-7/21), Hildy (Braska Hildy 7/10-12/22), Opal (Jax Opal 7/08-4/23). Toodles (BL Toodles 7/09-4/24) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest PiagetsMom Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 I'm so very sorry Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
iluvgreys Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 My heart aches for you. Making that final decision for your beloved girlie is just devastating. Know that Gigi is now free from pain and suffering, and is just a whisper away in spirit, forever in your heart. Quote Jeanne with Remington & Scooter the cat....and Beloved Bridge Angels Sandee, Shari, Wells, Derby, Phoenix, Jerry Lee and Finnian.....If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heavenand bring you home again. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jamngrey Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 Im sorry Quote Cassie: Pikes Clara Bell Swoop: My Man Swoop BRIDGE ANGELS Psi:WD'S Aleford 3/17/00-4/25/10 Snowman: Gable Snowman 1/9/96-2/14/08 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Remolacha Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 I am so sorry Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Anne Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 I am so very sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BertnLil Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 I'm so, so sorry. Quote Pam with Sockem the GH, Birdie the JRT, Osorno the chocolate lab, and Shelby the shepherd mix. Missing Clarice (1991-2007) and Lily (2004-2012), always in our hearts. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fliggie Posted September 5, 2011 Share Posted September 5, 2011 I'm very sorry. Quote My Photojournal Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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