Guest greyt2love Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 (edited) This morning I helped my Caesar to the Bridge. It was totally unexpected. Yesterday at noon he was fine. Last night at 5:00 PM he was in an unending seizure loop. This morning the vet said they tried taking him off the IV meds three times and each time he seizured. He said there was just nothing left to do to help my boy, and that mentally he was already gone. I am brokenhearted , but gave him a final gift of love and let him go to the Bridge where he will not have seizures to twist his body and bewilder his brain any longer. Caesar was my first grey, he opened my heart to these wonderful dogs, and started me on my path that led to 5 of them now. He was only 6 years old, and has been with me for 4 of those years. He had his first seizure with his foster's, 3 days before he was to come home to me. They asked if I still wanted to take him, and I said "Of course. He's my boy now and I'll deal with it." I almost lost him to siezures that same year, but a miracle was worked and he came home. He was no longer the funny playful youngster, but he was my sweet Caesar. My quiet man, reserved and self contained, but always wanting to be where he could watch everything that was going on. Over the years, his vet and I worked to get his meds right, and to keep him safe. In the past few months, he seemed to be doing very well, to the point I was thinking of asking if we could drop down a little. Caesar was on the highest dosage of pheno our vet has ever had in his practice and we constantly monitored for kidney and liver problems. He was okay there, but I thought if we could drop the pheno a little, that would be even better. I never got a chance to ask. The monster snuck in yesterday and took over his brain. Caesar was a Grey's Statesman boy, but not a good racer. That's how I got so lucky to bring him home before he was even two years old. He was a handsome brindle boy, always elegant and dignified. He was my quiet man, always nearby watching everything I did. He would not sleep on the bed, but he would let me sit on the couch with him and cuddle as long as I liked. He wouldn't take treats from my hand, but he would steal them from the table beside me, his long nose sliding along the table edge till he could snap up the treat with his tongue and then look at me like "What? Why are you staring at me like that? I didn't do anything?" He was the first one up in the morning. An alarm clock was not needed in this house. Every morning without fail, Caesar would start barking between 5:30 and 5:45, and not stop until I gave up and got out of bed. His deep bark could make your ears vibrate and there was no stopping him !! My life was structured around his med schedule, and even now, I am sitting here thinking " I have to give Caesar his pills. It's time." I know I am forgetting things I wanted to say, but my mind is wandering all over right now. Here are some pictures of my sweet man. "His " couch He loved baby sister Marlee, the only one of the gang he would share a bed with. Goodbye my love. It was not cancer, but another monster that took you,much too soon, but you will live in my heart forever. Love from momma.. Edited February 12, 2009 by greyt2love Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fsugrad Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 I am so sorry. Godspeed, handsome Caesar. Quote Rita, mom to Dakota (Dakotas Dream) & Wish (Kiowa Wish Wish) and my angels Toby (Sol Marcus) and Robin (Greys Robin Hood) Forever missing our beloved Robin and Toby "Until one has loved an animal, a part of one's soul remains unawakened." Anatole France Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest FrostyBottoms Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 I am so sorry Deb! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GreyPoopon Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 I'm so very sorry. Your precious handsome boy had to leave much too soon. Godspeed Caesar. Quote Standard Poodle Daisy (12/13) Missing Cora (RL Nevada 5/99-10/09), Piper (Cee Bar Easy 2/99-1/10), Tally (Thunder La La 9/99-3/10), Edie (Daring Reva 9/99-10/12), Dixie (Kiowa Secret Sue 11/01-1/13), Jessie (P's Real Time 11/98-3/13), token boy Graham (Zydeco Dancer 9/00-5/13), Cal (Back Already 12/99-11/13), Betsy (Back Kick Beth 11/98-12/13), Standard Poodles Minnie (1/99-1/14) + Perry (9/98-2/14), Annie (Do Marcia 9/03-10/14), Pink (Miss Pinky Baker 1/02-6/15), Poppy (Cmon Err Not 8/05-1/16), Kat (Jax Candy 5/05-5/17), Ivy (Jax Isis 10/07-7/21), Hildy (Braska Hildy 7/10-12/22), Opal (Jax Opal 7/08-4/23). Toodles (BL Toodles 7/09-4/24) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest BlackandBrindle Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 Oh Deb, I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face. Your baby was taken much too soon. I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet boy :grouphug Please let me know if there is ever anything you need Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ZoomDoggy Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 I am very sorry for your loss of such a sweet boy. Quote ~Aimee, with Flower, Alan, Queenie, & Spodee Odee! And forever in my heart: Tipper, Sissy, Chancy, Marla, Dazzle, Alimony, and Boo. This list is too damned long. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
win4profit Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 I am so sorry Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest VaGreymom Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 I am so very sorry. He looked like a gentle soul. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carronstar Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 I am so, so sorry. I met that monster too. Caesar was a beautiful boy. Godspeed. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MerlinsMum Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 I am so sorry Deb :cry1 This was so sudden, and the right words fail me right now... I will always remember him from that fourth photo, looking up at the camera. He was so very beautiful and wore such a gentle expression in all the photos I've seen of him. I am glad he is no longer suffering, but he was way too young Holding you in my thoughts. :grouphug Quote Kerry with Lupin in beautiful coastal Maine. Missing Pippin, my best friend and sweet little heart-healer 2013-2023 Also missing the best wizard in the world, Merlin, and my sweet 80lb limpet, Sagan, every single day. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest CindiLuvsGreys Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 I'm so sorry. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rickiesmom Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 What a handsome man your Caesar was! My heart goes out to you at this tragic and unexpected turn of events. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest caiteag Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 Deb, I am so so sorry. Run free, handsome Caesar... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
linda Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 Oh my, I've been thinking about Caesar since yesterday. While they're all beautiful, his was the face on your signature that I was always drawn to. Having lost a dog to seizures, I understand how hard it is to watch them suffer, and how helpless you feel when they're suffering, but that doesn't make it any easier to say goodbye. He was a sensitive old soul, and I know you'll miss him deeply. Linda Quote Angel Gary (Hallo Smoke'em 2000-2013), Angel Molly (Kiowa Mysticrule 1999-2011) Linda, Hana, Sultan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jenners Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 Deb Run free and fast over the Bridge, sweet Caesar, as I know you dreamed of doing. Jennifer Quote Jennie with her hedgehogs and Guinea pigs, and remembering Luna, Queen of the Piggies Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Remolacha Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 I am so sorry Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
grey14me Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 Oh, how sad I'm so sorry Quote Michelle...forever missing her girls, Holly 5/22/99-9/13/10 and Bailey 8/1/93-7/11/05 Religion is the smile on a dog...Edie Brickell Wag more, bark less :-) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CaliforniaGreys Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 Deb, I am so very sorry, it's truly heartbreaking. I was so stunned this morning. I hope you can take some comfort in knowing that he knew how very much you loved him, and it was from that love that you gave him that final gift. God speed handsome boy, run now with all the Angels seizure free, until you and your mom meet again. Please watch over your mom, her heart is broken. Run free handsome Quote Missing my little Misty who took a huge piece of my heart with her on 5/2/09, and Ekko, on 6/28/12 For the sick, the lost, and the homeless Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ChancesMom Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 :weep What a beautiful and soulful boy he was. I am sure that Marlee will miss him so much. He was taken way too young and soon but as I said before, he knew how much you loved him and you will always carry him in your heart knowing that you did every thing you could for him and that you made the greatest sacrifice by letting him go. Run free sweet Ceaser. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Pipi5 Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 I'm so sorry Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest hannahmom Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 Deb, His brother Grover and I are sending lots of caring from far away. Godspeed Caesar, you were so loved Tena Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fourofem Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 He had the best home ever...remember that. I am very sorry. Quote Blair, Stella (DND Heather), Lizzie (M's Deadra), Hitch (Hallo Dominant) and House (Mac's Dr. House) Missing my handsome men Lewis (Vs Lowrider) - 11/11/01 - 3/11/09, Kevin (Dakota's Hi Five) - 1/1/06 - 4/18/11 and my cat, Sparkle Baby - ??/??/96 - 4/23/11 "The gift which I am sending you is called a dog, and is, in fact, the most precious and valuable possession of mankind." (Theodorus Gaza) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RaineysMom Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 I'm so very sorry!!! :cry1 Quote Kim and Bruce - with Rick (Rick Roufus 6/30/16) and missing my sweet greyhound Angels Rainey (LG's Rainey 10/4/2000 - 3/8/2011), Anubis (RJ's Saint Nick 12/25/2001 - 9/12/12) and Zeke (Hey Who Whiz It 4/6/2009 - 7/20/2020) and Larry (PTL Laroach 2/24/2007 - 8/2/2020) -- and Chester (Lab) (8/31/1990 - 5/3/2005), Captain (Schipperke) (10/12/1992 - 6/13/2005) and Remy (GSP) (?/?/1998 - 1/6/2005) at the bridge"Always do sober what you said you'd do drunk. That will teach you to keep your mouth shut." -- Ernest Hemmingway Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Houndtime Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 I am so sorry for your loss. Take comfort in knowing your sweet Caesar is at peace, comfortable and resting with the angels. Quote Irene Ullmann w/Flying Odin and Mama Mia in Lower Delaware Angels Brandy, John E, American Idol, Paul, Fuzzy and Shine Handcrafted Greyhound and Custom Clocks http://www.houndtime.com Zoom Doggies-Racing Coats for Racing Greyhounds Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest argolola Posted February 12, 2009 Share Posted February 12, 2009 How heartbreaking. I'm so sorry. Please know that you will be in my prayers. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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