Guest neenieca Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 I haven't posted here since my Murphy died. I regret posting this time just as much. Penny was my first greyhound and my first dog, and these fora helped me learn how to be a compassionate greyhound lover more than words can say. Thank you for all that you did for us over the years. You died on a Wednesday, and I wasn’t there to say goodbye. You came home on a Saturday seven years ago, having chosen me as your own, beyond a shadow of a doubt. You were eager to please, a little scared, and desperate for attention and affection. You were a challenge to me. So much like myself, perhaps: demanding, micromanaging, opinionated, suspicious. But you were also sweet like sugar, affectionate, bouncy and shy. You were my great communicator, always working hard to let me know what was going on in that sharp mind of yours. I did my best to listen. You were alpha, they warned, but you showed me you were only a social climber in need of rules and boundaries. I gave them to you, though I never trained you, I always say. We simply reached an understanding. But still you learned what I asked of you, in order to keep your mind busy: high five and sit and find it and touch and kiss and these same again in Italian. And you executed each command like a lady, as I asked. You were a wonderful hostess to guests, a happy research assistant, excellent company, a fierce protector, and a warm bed fellow. But you also had some challenges to overcome. You were a picky eater with a sensitive stomach and allergies, so I experimented without success until I gave in and fed you raw, on which you thrived. You were terrified of large groups of kids, to the point of being afraid to go for a walk, so I got you a brother: Murphy, whose supervision gave you a purpose far more satisfying than fear, and we walked then as a pack, with you our proud, and oh-so-elegant leader. You were a bounce. Promised a home, then returned by those who didn’t take the time to get to know you. It was clearly my gain. I promised you that you would always have a place with me, and I meant it: California, Oklahoma, Wisconsin. We journeyed together, reinventing ourselves and growing with the changing climate and terrain. You weathered the loss of loved ones, a dog walker when work kept me from you, and time in a kennel whenever I had to travel out of the country. Just like the day you died. During my most difficult days you were my constant, my bella gioia, my PITA, my faithful companion, my reason to try, my family. You died on a Wednesday, and I wasn’t there to say goodbye, to make decisions about your pain, or to witness the beautiful, strong girl I loved so take her last breath. Such a precious moment to have missed. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to forgive myself for that. But I hope you knew that it wasn’t the lack of love for you that kept me away. It could never have been that, Penny. I miss you. I miss your needle nose nudging me persistently for attention. I miss the way you jumped up to kiss my cheek when I came home, even at 11 years old with osteo in one shoulder. I miss the way you couldn’t wait for me to rub your belly and would have your legs in the air before I even made it to your bed. I miss watching you dig in the dirt, wiggle in the grass, and nest in your blankets. I miss your inquisitive eyes, your gentle, courteous ways, your tenacity. I miss the way you orbited around me like I was the sun, when in fact you were the center of *my* universe. While shopping the other day, I accidentally reached for a box of your cookies, and I was horrified that I had forgotten your absence. How was that possible? What was wrong with me? But in fact, I’ve realized, I had simply remembered your presence, and I hope I continue to do so for a long, long time because I’m just not yet ready to let you go. Run free, my sweet Penny Lane, and know that you are so very, very loved. Penny's gallery: https://plus.google....952820504785729 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kikibean Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 I'm so sorry. What a special girl she was. Quote Wingnut (DC Wingnut), Voo Doo (Voo Doo von Bonz), Barb (Myokie Barb) & Romey (Nose Stradamus)at the bridge Molly (CM Blondie) 9/8/14, Maddy (Reuniting) 10/17/13, Rocky (Ranco Popeye) 1/7/12, Mimi (Flying Ringneck) 8/13/09 and RJ (RJ What For) 5/3/05 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fliggie Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 :f_pink Quote My Photojournal Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest 4rooers Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 Run with the wind sweet girl. No more pain. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FiveRoooooers Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 One of the most moving tributes I have ever read. Please do not beat yourself up because you couldn't be with Penny at the end, she knew you were with her. I am so very sorry for the loss of your dear friend. Godspeed beautiful Penny. Quote Old Dogs are the Best Dogs. Thank you, campers. Current enrollees: Punkin. AnnIE Oooh M Angels: Pal . Segugio. Sorella (TPGIT). LadyBug. Zeke-aroni. MiMi Sizzle Pants. Gracie. Seamie . (Foster)Sweet. Andy. PaddyALVIN!Mayhem. Bosco. Bruno. Dottie B. Trevor Double-Heart. Bea. Cletus, KLTO. Aiden 1-4. Upon reflection, our lives are often referenced in parts defined by the all-too-short lives of our dogs. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Neighsayer Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 Hugs! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
misspiggy Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 So sorry, what a beautiful dog ! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
celbee Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 Many hugs. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl. Carol Quote Greyhound Fleece Jackets Greyhound Pack: EdWin, Jethro. and Lucky; Foster Jinks; Angels Janet, Faster, Blake, Navarre, Murray, and Festus. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fostr_Mom Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 My heart hurts for you, that you weren't able to be with Penny Lane when she left. I'm sure she knew how very much she is loved. Godspeed sweet girl. Quote <p>Mom to Kyle (Diehard Kyle) & Angel Gracie (KB's Sankey) Foster Mom for AFG Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheFullHouse Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 I'm so sorry for your loss. Please know she knew how much you loved her. Godspeed Penny Lane. Quote Judy, mom to Darth Vader, Bandita, And Angel Forever in our hearts, DeeYoGee, Dani, Emmy, Andy, Heart, Saint, Valentino, Arrow, Gee, Bebe, Jilly Bean, Bullitt, Pistol, Junior, Sammie, Joey, Gizmo, Do Bee Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
racindog Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 Very moving tribute. You will never forget her presence because you will find out,as I did, that she will be with you always. Then it will comfort you. You were with her when she crossed over-just like you are with her now. Only her body died. She knows & you know. Hearts know what the minds can't undersand. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Batmom Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 What an incredibly beautiful girl. I'm so sorry she had to leave you. Run with the angels, sweet pea. Quote Star aka Starz Ovation (Ronco x Oneco Maggie*, litter #48538), Coco aka Low Key (Kiowa Mon Manny x Party Hardy, litter # 59881), and mom in IllinoisWe miss Reko Batman (Trouper Zeke x Marque Louisiana), 11/15/95-6/29/06, Rocco the thistledown whippet, 04/29/93-10/14/08, Reko Zema (Mo Kick x Reko Princess), 8/16/98-4/18/10, the most beautiful girl in the whole USA, my good egg Joseph aka Won by a Nose (Oneco Cufflink x Buy Back), 09/22/2003-03/01/2013, and our gentle sweet Gidget (Digitizer, Dodgem by Design x Sobe Mulberry), 1/29/2006-11/22/2014, gone much too soon. Never forgetting CJC's Buckshot, 1/2/07-10/25/10. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest PiagetsMom Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 I'm sorry for the loss of your beautiful girl, Penny Lane......she was well loved Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cully Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 Run free sweet baby. Quote waiting at the bridge Connie Van Teddy & Jojo, Cobra Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
NancyB Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 I'm so sorry Quote Nancy with Rocket, Umeko and Sasha Missing Albi, Kassie, Ramm, Ruby, my good boy Marvin and Mickey (BT) NANCY B'S COLLARS Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sabrina Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 Sorry for you loss of Penny Lane Quote Caroline, Mom to Daphne (49B-50215) and Penny (41D-55779)Remembering Bridge Angels Margo and Sabrina Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest patgam Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 I am so sorry for the loss of your Penny Lane. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GreyPoopon Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 I'm so very sorry. You wrote a great tribute to a very special girl. Godspeed Penny Lane. Quote Standard Poodle Daisy (12/13) Missing Cora (RL Nevada 5/99-10/09), Piper (Cee Bar Easy 2/99-1/10), Tally (Thunder La La 9/99-3/10), Edie (Daring Reva 9/99-10/12), Dixie (Kiowa Secret Sue 11/01-1/13), Jessie (P's Real Time 11/98-3/13), token boy Graham (Zydeco Dancer 9/00-5/13), Cal (Back Already 12/99-11/13), Betsy (Back Kick Beth 11/98-12/13), Standard Poodles Minnie (1/99-1/14) + Perry (9/98-2/14), Annie (Do Marcia 9/03-10/14), Pink (Miss Pinky Baker 1/02-6/15), Poppy (Cmon Err Not 8/05-1/16), Kat (Jax Candy 5/05-5/17), Ivy (Jax Isis 10/07-7/21), Hildy (Braska Hildy 7/10-12/22), Opal (Jax Opal 7/08-4/23). Toodles (BL Toodles 7/09-4/24) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest jettcricket Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 "I miss the way you orbited around me like I was the sun, when in fact you were the center of *my* universe." When I read this it brought instant tears....I'm so sorry in the loss of your most special girl. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
greytpups Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 I'm so sorry for your loss Quote Jan with precious pups Emmy (Stormin J Flag) and Simon (Nitro Si) and Abbey Field. Missing my angels: Bailey Buffetbobleclair 11/11/98-17/12/09; Ben Task Rapid Wave 5/5/02-2/11/15; Brooke Glo's Destroyer 7/09/06-21/06/16 and Katie Crazykatiebug 12/11/06 -21/08/21. My blog about grief The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not get over the loss of a loved one; you will learn to live with it. You will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again but you will never be the same. Nor should you be the same, nor would you want to. ― Elisabeth Kübler-Ross Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BatterseaBrindl Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 I am so very sorry for the loss of your Penny. You made some wonderful memories together. Rmember all the good times.... they will keep you going over the next few days, weeks, months..... Quote Nancy...Mom to Sid (Peteles Tiger), Kibo (112 Carlota Galgos) and Joshi. Missing Casey, Gomer, Mona, Penelope, BillieJean, Bandit, Nixon (Starz Sammie), Ruby (Watch Me Dash) Nigel (Nigel), and especially little Mario, waiting at the Bridge. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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BertnLil Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 What a beautiful tribute, and a beautiful girl. I'm so sorry. Quote Pam with Sockem the GH, Birdie the JRT, Osorno the chocolate lab, and Shelby the shepherd mix. Missing Clarice (1991-2007) and Lily (2004-2012), always in our hearts. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Charlies_Dad Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 Truly very sorry for your loss of Penny and not being able to be by her side as she passed. Sometimes life prevents us but she always will remember the great life you gave her. Run free Penny, run free sweetie... Quote Kyle with Stewie ('Super C Ledoux, Super C Sampson x Sing It Blondie) and forever missing my three angels, Jack ('Roy Jack', Greys Flambeau x Miss Cobblepot) and Charlie ('CTR Midas Touch', Leo's Midas x Hallo Argentina) and Shelby ('Shari's Hooty', Flying Viper x Shari Carusi) running free across the bridge. Gus an coinnich sinn a'rithist my boys and little girl. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
carronstar Posted June 20, 2012 Share Posted June 20, 2012 I am so very sorry. Run free, Penny Lane. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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