I am so sorry! My deepest sympathy. By the way-that was not an "attempt" to get a picture of Tarmac and you. Look at the eyes of both of you! Don't you see the connection? I can actually see a cord or bridge or something- its there. That is a very special picture!
Please don't have any negative feelings about when he crossed over. You were there and he was enveloped in your love and you helped him cross over as no one else could have. He knows that and is grateful.
Regarding-
".....His little bat head will no longer be staring out at me from the back window when I come up the driveway. There will be no more games of fetch in the big fenced field, no more opportunities to see the look of sheer joy on his face when he runs. He will no longer be hovering by the counter when I chop veggies for dinner, staring at the growing pile and silently urging it to fall to the floor. We won’t hear the staccato of his nails on the side of our bed at night while he dreams. I won’t discover toys he stashed in my tote bag when I get to work in the morning. ..."
please try to be open minded as you can. He may send you a sign to comfort you. When he does it will be unmistakeable because it will probably be something like the above. Don't try to understand how. Just enjoy it.
You two will ALWAYS be a part of each other. I just wanted to share my experience, strength, and hope with you and send you a hug!
“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart.”
“What we have enjoyed we can never lose…All that we love deeply becomes a part of us.”-Helen Keller