Oh my dear, we all are surrounding you with love and compassion. I am so sorry for your deep loss and hurt. We get so close to these babies, and then there comes a time when they move on to a higher place. Dear Frost is watching over you. I know the feeling you described when bringing him home again. I felt the same way when my Sierra (big girl) was in a small urn. Very hard for me. My other girl who I lost came to me in three dreams letting me know she was ok. It really helped since her last few hours were not good. That was 2004 and I still miss those beautiful girls. And let me tell you, the love I got from the forum kept me alive.
Run free dear Frost, watch your mama.
:bighug