What a perfect drawing! I love the faint smile!
When does it get better? I have no idea. My DH still mourns our Newfie who has been gone 11-1/2 years. Oh, it's not like he's crying about her, but when the subject come up, he admits that he's "still not over it". Nikki will be gone 3 years on May 1st and I'm not "over it", either. Adopting Suze & Fuzz 5 days after Nikki died was a huge help - at least they were a huge diversion! But almost losing Suze last month (February 14) to acute renal failure changed something. I mourn for the dogs gone from other's lives and my heart breaks for the humans and others who loved them, but I now live much more in the present. Suze is reminding me to do that every day - she will be coming to get me any minute for her nightly belly rub. That never happened before February 14. She actually cuddled up to me Saturday night and put her head in my lap. That never happened before February 14. I look forward to our evenings and I'm looking forward to more changes.
Take your time. Do what feels right and keep your heart open to possibilities. In the meantime, look at the drawing often. I think there's a message in there for you.