I lost Rex just as fast and I lost him to hemangiosarcoma that I did not know he had.
I know this may seem silly, but the man makes sense. Dr. Phil would say something like... Are you going to let Otis's life be defined by that last moment, that one event, or are you going to remember him for all the years he was with you?
Me speaking again, You need to remember Otis by all the seconds, minutes, hours, days, and years you had together.
Otis doesn't blame you. You need to stop balming you.
You miss him. It hurts. Otis touched your life, and now without him your life has changed.
Losing Rex was terribly hard on me. Losing Vinnie six months later nearly killed me.
I'm still here and you will be, too. It's too soon for it not to hurt. It has to hurt to get past the pain.
Keep talking and writing about Oris. Share Otis stories. It will help.
Sending hugs,