If it helps at all, even a little bit....... I understand.
I've had that feeling too, of Foxy being right there. I had a dream, so intense I could feel her paws hit my back. Last week, for the first time in ages, I got out 4 cookies instead of 3. I dropped it, and no-one even tried to pick it up. It was as if they knew, it wasn't for them.
Open your heart to the possibility and listen, she is still with you.
Know too you are not alone, we walk this journey with you if you let us.