My message won't be too long (I hope!) because so many others have expressed the feelings I felt losing Bailey in Dec. We had to make a decision to let her go the same day as she was diagnosed and we had no idea she was so sick. Losing my heart dog was so painful, for days I felt I could barely function. I had trouble eating and sleeping. However, we always said that in honour of Bailey's memory we would adopt another grey because so many need loving homes. Bailey opened us up to this wonderful world of greyhounds and greyhound people, and for that I will always have her to thank. She was a blessing in disguise and came into my life when I really needed her. I always said that she saved me.
We still have Ben and each day I forced myself to care for him. It didn't mean I loved him any less, I love him soooooooo much, it just meant that I could barely care for myself and wanted the awful pain to go away. But 10 days later we adopted Brooke. Initially, I was afraid I wouldn't be able to love another one like I love Bailey. That lasted for about 10 seconds until she walked into the room. Her foster dad said he could tell she was the one just by the look in my eyes. No one will ever replace Bailey and I still love and miss her terribly. But the pain is easing and Brooke has been the best grief councellor. Brooke is an addition because my heart is big and the pain of losing my baby will never equal the joy I experienced with her in my life. I've never regretted following my heart. And I love my baby Brooke soooooooooo much.