LadyBailey Posted April 29, 2008 Share Posted April 29, 2008 (edited) I have been meaning to post photos of how we are honoring and remembering Carrier and how we find it really comforting and today I finally did! The last few weeks have been hard. I've been mad, sad, feeling guilty... you name it, the emotion has passed over me. I know that feeling all too well of missing them so much that it takes your breath away. It happened to me a few times last week. My emotions come in waves... actually more like tidal waves... I can be thinking about Carrier and laughing and then immediately break down.... and I let myself... I let it all out and cry so bloody hard ... I have never in my 32 years cried like this and we have lost close family, but for me... Carrier was my boy, my heart and my soul... it was an honor caring for him and having him in our lives. And now it's my honor to continue to keep his spirit alive and strong just like when he was physically here. When Carrier left us, the first thing we did was pull out even more photos of him and added them to where his candle burned since he was diagnosed. Soon after he left us, cards and flowers arrived for our boy and those too were added to what was becoming the "shrine" ...the photos, his candle, pj's, CoG blanket, Lambies and collars. Then Carrier came home... his beautiful urn that we choose especially for him. A granite stone with two candles that symbolized him being our second dog. The granite was so organic looking - it resembled the earth, air, water, grass, animals... all those beautiful things that Carrier loved. And it was heavy! Just like him when Tim had to carry him - how appropriate we thought ... but not only was it heavy, it was solid - rock solid - just like Carrier. It cost a fortune , but we didn't care - this was for Carrier. We also had an impression of his beautiful strong paw that carried him through this journey. All of these beautiful memories soon created quite the shrine to our boy. After Carrier left us, the spring flowers started blooming, so every few days a new bouquet or two or three adorn his shrine. I go out every day and cut fresh flowers for him and add them to the arrangements. If we are home, his candles are lit. We tell him goodnight as we go up to bed and that we love him. We sort of worship him and it feels good. We have been looking for the perfect memory box so we can add all of his things when we are ready - but for now they adorn our home. I have been taking photos because I want to remember what everything looked like when we were going through this... each day I take a photo when new flowers are add or new cards arrive. I want to share these photos with you. My God we miss him, but we will surely never, ever forget him - not even for a minute. He might not be here for us to hug but when you walk into our home, you know that a very special boy lived here. His collar comes on walks with us - I hold it as I watch Bailey, Andy and Ella enjoying life - knowing that Carrier is watching down on us - sometimes as we walk we have butterflies flying with us the whole way - I like to think that that is Carrier...in fact I know it is, because he's in my heart where ever we go. Sweet Boy...we love you. eva Here is his "shrine" after he passed Here is Carrier's Urn and Paw Print His photos adorn the wall More of his "shrine" More flowers from my brother and SIL "Shrine" on the 18th of April "Shrine" as of today Edited April 29, 2008 by LadyBailey Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest PhillyPups Posted April 29, 2008 Share Posted April 29, 2008 Beautiful tribute to a very special and very blessed boy... thank you Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Fudge Posted April 29, 2008 Share Posted April 29, 2008 Oh my LadyBailey.....tears started when I came upon the photos of Carrier on the wall. What a beautiful beautiful tribute to a wonderful boy. Carrier I'm sure knows you love him for now and ever Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pabozem Posted April 29, 2008 Share Posted April 29, 2008 Eva, I've been following Carrier's story for some time. I live close to Wichita, where Carrier came from. The love you had for this boy has been the one constant through all his troubles. Thank you so much for giving him such a wonderful life. Every hound should be so blessed. Hugs to you and the rest of your crew. Pat P.S. Your shrine is beautiful! Quote Waiting at the bridge: Blaze, Rodney, Lady, Spice, Sarahlee, Callie and Baby Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Houndtime Posted April 29, 2008 Share Posted April 29, 2008 Your shine looks very comforting. Beautiful. Quote Irene Ullmann w/Flying Odin and Mama Mia in Lower Delaware Angels Brandy, John E, American Idol, Paul, Fuzzy and Shine Handcrafted Greyhound and Custom Clocks http://www.houndtime.com Zoom Doggies-Racing Coats for Racing Greyhounds Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
MerlinsMum Posted April 29, 2008 Share Posted April 29, 2008 Oh Eva, How stunningly beautiful. I had tears in my eyes reading your post and admiring the pictures. I especially love the flowers and the photos.... it reminded me a bit of the lyrics of that Streisand song, "Memories, like the corners of my mind, misty watercolored memories..." For some reason I feel like crying. I never met Carrier, but some days I almost felt as if I knew him from your detailed and loving posts about him, before, during and after his illness. I know he will be forever in your heart. And that makes me smile. :grouphug Quote Kerry with Lupin in beautiful coastal Maine. Missing Pippin, my best friend and sweet little heart-healer 2013-2023 Also missing the best wizard in the world, Merlin, and my sweet 80lb limpet, Sagan, every single day. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
patricia Posted April 29, 2008 Share Posted April 29, 2008 (edited) I know your every emotion way too well. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I miss Carrier too. Edited April 29, 2008 by patricia Quote Patti-Mommy of Lady Sophia 7-28-92 - 8-3-04... LaceyLaine 8-2-94-12-5-07... Flash Gordon 7-14-99 - 8-29-09... BrookLynne...Pavé Maria... and 18 Bridge Kids. WATCHING OVER US~SOPHIA~QUEENIE~LACEY LAINE~ CODY ANGELO~FLASH GORDON. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
iluvgreys Posted April 29, 2008 Share Posted April 29, 2008 What a lovely way to honor your heart hound. Quote Jeanne with Remington & Scooter the cat....and Beloved Bridge Angels Sandee, Shari, Wells, Derby, Phoenix, Jerry Lee and Finnian.....If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heavenand bring you home again. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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robinw Posted April 30, 2008 Share Posted April 30, 2008 beautiful Quote Xavi the galgo and Peter the cat. Missing Iker the galgo ?-Feb.9/19, Treasure (USS Treasure) April 12/01-May 6/13, Phoenix (Hallo Top Son) Dec.14/99-June 4/11 and Loca (Reko Swahili) Oct.9/95 - June 1/09, Allen the boss cat, died late November, 2021, age 19. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest LolasMom Posted April 30, 2008 Share Posted April 30, 2008 Such a lovely way to honor such a very precious boy. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Laur Posted April 30, 2008 Share Posted April 30, 2008 Well loved...well missed Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Machbragal Posted April 30, 2008 Share Posted April 30, 2008 Oh boy. I couldn't hold the tears back. Your love for Carrier is so crystal clear and has always been. I thank God that he was loved so much in life. I know what you mean about how this feels. I have a cat that I feel this way about and he's getting older. I've had him for 9 years and I DREAD the day I have to open my eyes in this world without him there. I don't know how I will handle it, truly. I hope that I handle it as gracefully as you are doing. Hang in there -- you and Carrier continue to be in my prayers. CARRIER, YOU ARE AMAZING AND WE MISS YOU TERRIBLY. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest vahoundlover Posted April 30, 2008 Share Posted April 30, 2008 Tears roll down my cheeks, for the love you and Carrier shared.....for the heartache you are feeling. Carrier's shrine speaks volumes of the love and joy he brought into your lives. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest RavenRacersMom Posted April 30, 2008 Share Posted April 30, 2008 absouletly beautiful, my heart goes to you and your family Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest grey_dreams Posted April 30, 2008 Share Posted April 30, 2008 Candles, flowers, photos. Stone and ash. This is all so close to my own experience. Your love for Carrier still shines as bright as his soul. He is surely with you on your walks and while you light the candles. My heart goes out to you Eva. This is for Carrier ... Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest MZH Posted April 30, 2008 Share Posted April 30, 2008 I'm so sorry for your loss. Just a little over a month ago you were saying the same to me; I wish it wasn't your turn. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kjw Posted May 5, 2008 Share Posted May 5, 2008 What a beautiful shrine...I am so sorry you're going through this heartache. Quote CAMP GREYHOUND Tempo (Keep the Tempo), Nora (Road Noise) & Gabe the babe (Gable Habenero), Cooper (Uncle Bud's Coop), Topper (Red Top), & Galgos Lisette & Manolito. Missing our beloved angels Cody (Kiowa My Dodie), Lou (Cantankerous Lou), Romi (FingerRoll), Connie (Devie's Concord), Millie (Djays Overhaul), Bailey (Hallo Forty nine), Andy (Iza Handy Boy, and Rocco (Ripley Rocco), Gracie (VS Megan), Eragon the Longdog, Joey (WJS Flashfire), Roy (Folly and Glory) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
LadyBailey Posted May 6, 2008 Author Share Posted May 6, 2008 The flowers just keep blooming in our yard this year. Last spring we didn't have nearly as many flowers. So of course we are enjoying them inside and out. We also have an abundance of new life in our yard. Many of our goldfish are pregnant in the pond. We had mourning dove babies and at the moment we have baby robins. The animal communicator told us that every time we see a robin, it's Carrier saying hello. Which is interesting because the Robin is my favourite bird. There is always a robin sitting on the fence when we get home and it stares right at us - kind strange, but nice. And the other sweet little babies that we have are bunnies. Carrier must have sent all these wonderful animals to us and the flowers continue to grow for our boy... May 1 One of the bunnies May 4 - five weeks since our boy left us Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest Machbragal Posted May 6, 2008 Share Posted May 6, 2008 How beautiful. He knows how you miss him and what will bring you some comfort and he is doing his best. Gosh, I MISS so much hearing about how Carrier is doing! I'm glad he continues to be a huge presence in your life. Thank you for sharng the WONDERFUL photos. So hard to imagine that he's not here this Spring. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Greytlady94 Posted May 6, 2008 Share Posted May 6, 2008 What a beautiful tribute.... Godspeed Carrier. Quote Greyhound angels at the bridge- Casey, Charlie, Maggie, Molly, Renie, Lucy & Teddy. Beagle angels Peanut and Charlie. And to all the 4 legged Bridge souls who have touched my heart, thank you. When a greyhound looks into you eyes it seems they touch your very soul. "A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more then he loves himself". Josh Billings Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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