I know just how you feel only with Jack it is cancer. Every whine. Every time he limps more. When he pants or his nose drips I am beside myself worrying that he is hurting, failing. I look into his eyes ever day to see if he is telling me he's ready. It's so hard. And I didn't sign up for secret santa.
But then Jack was diagnosed in May and for the life of me I haven't figured out why I am so very lucky to still have him with me.
to you and for Jed