I was so hoping that there was an alternative, but sadly................I am so, so sorry for your loss. Losing him so suddenly is probably like a bomb going off in the middle of your world. You're standing in a huge crater, all alone, shocked and wondering how you got there. You aren't alone. All of GT is here for you. The crater of grief is real, but little by little you will be able to walk out of it. Dappy left so suddenly that I'm sure he will be sending you a sign that he's ok. Run pain free, Dappy and send your Mom a sign.