The first month Pearl was gone (Feb 5), I felt I should have been crying more. But I wasn't. I don't know why considering she was the most important thing in my life for the past 8 yrs.
When Topaz died 10 yrs ago, every time I looked at adopting another white/black girl I cried. That told me I wasn't ready yet. Two years later when I saw Pearl down in Fla, I didn't cry. I actually was excited to get her. We bonded instantly. I knew I was ready then.
So this time around, I felt that my heart would once again tell me if it was too soon to adopt. I wanted someone to cuddle with. None of my other three do that. I saw Jetta on the NGAP website (she's white/black). Didn't say cuddler, but did say playful. I could use someone to play fetch with and play with Opal (Pearl was her playmate too).
Before I put in an application for her I found a blue brindle down in Fla that fit the bill perfectly. Playful, got along with other greys, cuddler. I thought Kamper would be a much better match for me because I knew I wouldn't see Pearl in her since she was a blue brindle. (and of course, being blue, I could keep the gem theme and call her Sapphire). I asked if they adopt to NJ. They do but they were keeping Kamper close to home because she was a little growly at M&Gs. I figured it was meant to be then and applied for Jetta.
Of course after I was approved, Fla. emailed me back stating that Kamper seemed fine. (thanks, but it's a little late now)
Well. I meet Jetta twice before putting in the application and neither time did I cry. She was much more like my other little w/b girl Opal. So I thought it would work out fine.
I brought Jetta, now called Jade, home last saturday and I did alright thru sunday. Probably because I had to work with her. (stairs, counter surfing, puppy proofing...she's into everything, stuff like that)
But Monday, I introduced her to the sofa and when she realized what that meant, she got up and snuggle right next to me. Her head on my lap.
When I looked down at her, all I saw was Pearl. I tried so hard to see Jade. But I couldn't. It was Pearl. My Pearl.
I've been crying a lot since.