We went to pick up SM at the vet today, and I asked my 10 yo son to put my earrings in the little jewelry box that I have in the car (I don't usually - long story). When I came back to the car, he was wearing my memory anklet that I had made with Joe's name, racing name, and a little charm of a greyhound with wings. I said, you can wear that, but you have to be really careful, okay?
Anyway, it really opened a floodgate of emotion from him to have that. He was just SOBBING and SOBBING. We talked about Joe for awhile, and remembered him. It's just amazing to me that it can be so fresh in his heart after two years. He was weeping as if Joe had just died.
I think maybe having SM so sick was hard for him, and made him worry and feel the pain of losing Joe all over again.
My other son kept asking us to please stop talking about it because it was making him sad.
I just don't know what to say sometimes. I think it's good to remember him, and talk about him, but then maybe I'm just upsetting my kids more...
They're fine now, btw, and he put the anklet back in the box.
He said he wanted to talk about him because he feels like he starts to forget him - what he looked like, and what he did.
Ah, sigh...
We miss ya Joe.