Guest jenznaz Posted June 9, 2010 Share Posted June 9, 2010 Last year on this date I woke up and knew it was the day. I called out of work and spent the entire day alternating between sobbing and resignation; guilt and acceptance. I can honestly say this was the single most raw and soul-wrenching experience of my human life. A good friend was there for me and drove us to the vet. Naz had a amazing veterinarian who talked me through all the steps, cried with me, and reassured me that I was doing the right thing – she saw so many patients whose owners had kept them alive for far too long, and that it was better a day too soon than a day too late. I still can’t even type this without bursting into tears at the memory of his still body in my arms – Naz was never still a single day that I knew him. I lit incense outside before being driven home to help his soul move on to be reincarnated. My husband met me outside and we walked Naz’s normal night-walk-route. We weren’t ok for a long time – my husband developed some awful anxiety and health problems he attributes to his inability to know how to grieve. A year has passed and I don’t cry anymore when the light catches his name on the plaque on his box of ashes. My stomach doesn’t turn every time I see his well worn collars. We adopted again three months ago. I felt closer to Naz than any human relative. He was my soul dog, and it feels shallow to say I’m afraid I might never have that experience again. I wrote this silly poem for him Atascocita AJ is what you were named, But to be a great racer was not your fame. Two races won out of twenty-eight, Maybe you were too slow out of the gate. But oh! When I met you in that commuter lot, How my heart went flippity-flop! Into the tiny car we all somehow crammed, Off to your new life in a strange, foreign land… You snapped at my son – not once but twice, You ate from the trash, didn’t heed our advice. Bit at pit bulls and newfies alike, Pulled on the leash when we’d go for a hike. But time and trust mellowed you out, That you were worth every effort, there is no doubt. I loved your habits, your softness, that piece missing from your ear, Your bossy attitude, your total lack of fear. My big brindle boy, why did you have to leave? At first there seemed to be no end to my grief. But I took comfort that we had made the right choice In ending your pain; we knew you had no voice. I will love you forever, but perhaps my heart will mend, If I can find another greyhound-best-friend. You were supposed to be ours, ended up being mine, My Nazzie, my soul-dog, we’ll meet again in Time. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheFullHouse Posted June 9, 2010 Share Posted June 9, 2010 That first year without them is so hard. What a sweet poem, I know he'd love it. Quote Judy, mom to Darth Vader, Bandita, And Angel Forever in our hearts, DeeYoGee, Dani, Emmy, Andy, Heart, Saint, Valentino, Arrow, Gee, Bebe, Jilly Bean, Bullitt, Pistol, Junior, Sammie, Joey, Gizmo, Do Bee Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
nyGreys Posted June 9, 2010 Share Posted June 9, 2010 What a lovely poem. Beautiful angel. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
racindog Posted June 9, 2010 Share Posted June 9, 2010 I just know he's smiling at that poem and basking in your love. He will always be with you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
grey14me Posted June 9, 2010 Share Posted June 9, 2010 :grouphug Quote Michelle...forever missing her girls, Holly 5/22/99-9/13/10 and Bailey 8/1/93-7/11/05 Religion is the smile on a dog...Edie Brickell Wag more, bark less :-) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
grey14me Posted June 9, 2010 Share Posted June 9, 2010 :grouphug Quote Michelle...forever missing her girls, Holly 5/22/99-9/13/10 and Bailey 8/1/93-7/11/05 Religion is the smile on a dog...Edie Brickell Wag more, bark less :-) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Batmom Posted June 9, 2010 Share Posted June 9, 2010 What a lovely poem for him. You and your family are in my thoughts today. Rest well, Naz. Quote Star aka Starz Ovation (Ronco x Oneco Maggie*, litter #48538), Coco aka Low Key (Kiowa Mon Manny x Party Hardy, litter # 59881), and mom in IllinoisWe miss Reko Batman (Trouper Zeke x Marque Louisiana), 11/15/95-6/29/06, Rocco the thistledown whippet, 04/29/93-10/14/08, Reko Zema (Mo Kick x Reko Princess), 8/16/98-4/18/10, the most beautiful girl in the whole USA, my good egg Joseph aka Won by a Nose (Oneco Cufflink x Buy Back), 09/22/2003-03/01/2013, and our gentle sweet Gidget (Digitizer, Dodgem by Design x Sobe Mulberry), 1/29/2006-11/22/2014, gone much too soon. Never forgetting CJC's Buckshot, 1/2/07-10/25/10. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
robinw Posted June 10, 2010 Share Posted June 10, 2010 Such a beautiful poem for a beautiful hound. Quote Xavi the galgo and Peter the cat. Missing Iker the galgo ?-Feb.9/19, Treasure (USS Treasure) April 12/01-May 6/13, Phoenix (Hallo Top Son) Dec.14/99-June 4/11 and Loca (Reko Swahili) Oct.9/95 - June 1/09, Allen the boss cat, died late November, 2021, age 19. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest how888 Posted June 10, 2010 Share Posted June 10, 2010 Last year on this date I woke up and knew it was the day. I called out of work and spent the entire day alternating between sobbing and resignation; guilt and acceptance. I can honestly say this was the single most raw and soul-wrenching experience of my human life. A good friend was there for me and drove us to the vet. Naz had a amazing veterinarian who talked me through all the steps, cried with me, and reassured me that I was doing the right thing – she saw so many patients whose owners had kept them alive for far too long, and that it was better a day too soon than a day too late. I still can’t even type this without bursting into tears at the memory of his still body in my arms – Naz was never still a single day that I knew him. I lit incense outside before being driven home to help his soul move on to be reincarnated. My husband met me outside and we walked Naz’s normal night-walk-route. We weren’t ok for a long time – my husband developed some awful anxiety and health problems he attributes to his inability to know how to grieve. A year has passed and I don’t cry anymore when the light catches his name on the plaque on his box of ashes. My stomach doesn’t turn every time I see his well worn collars. We adopted again three months ago. I felt closer to Naz than any human relative. He was my soul dog, and it feels shallow to say I’m afraid I might never have that experience again. I wrote this silly poem for him Atascocita AJ is what you were named, But to be a great racer was not your fame. Two races won out of twenty-eight, Maybe you were too slow out of the gate. But oh! When I met you in that commuter lot, How my heart went flippity-flop! Into the tiny car we all somehow crammed, Off to your new life in a strange, foreign land… You snapped at my son – not once but twice, You ate from the trash, didn’t heed our advice. Bit at pit bulls and newfies alike, Pulled on the leash when we’d go for a hike. But time and trust mellowed you out, That you were worth every effort, there is no doubt. I loved your habits, your softness, that piece missing from your ear, Your bossy attitude, your total lack of fear. My big brindle boy, why did you have to leave? At first there seemed to be no end to my grief. But I took comfort that we had made the right choice In ending your pain; we knew you had no voice. I will love you forever, but perhaps my heart will mend, If I can find another greyhound-best-friend. You were supposed to be ours, ended up being mine, My Nazzie, my soul-dog, we’ll meet again in Time. I read the poem and got my husband up and read it to him.. You wrote that? It made me cry so much , I miss Nike.. I just want to tell you I am sooooo sorry.. Please can I use your poem? I need to send it to my family. It is so sweet.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest jenznaz Posted June 10, 2010 Share Posted June 10, 2010 I read the poem and got my husband up and read it to him.. You wrote that? It made me cry so much , I miss Nike.. I just want to tell you I am sooooo sorry.. Please can I use your poem? I need to send it to my family. It is so sweet.. Of course you can use it! Thank you for the kind words, I know how much you miss Nike Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HJsM Posted June 10, 2010 Share Posted June 10, 2010 It's hard isn't it? Good thoughts to you and yours.. Quote ATASCOSITA DIAZ - MY WONDER DOG!Missing our Raisin: 9/9/94 - 7/20/08, our Super Bea: 2003 - 12/16/09, our Howie: 9/17/97 - 4/9/11, our Bull: 8/7/00 - 1/17/13, our Wyatt Earp: 11/22/06 - 12/16/15, and our Cyclone 8/26/05 - 9/12/16 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ss556 Posted June 10, 2010 Share Posted June 10, 2010 What a nice poem for such a sweetie. Hugs to you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
greypuppyluv Posted June 11, 2010 Share Posted June 11, 2010 I felt closer to Naz than any human relative. He was my soul dog, and it feels shallow to say I'm afraid I might never have that experience again. I had that same kind of relationship with our whippet, Piper. I knew he was a once-in-a-lifetime dog and that when I lost him, I wouldn't ever have that same experience with another dog again. It's hard. But, you go on to adopt again, and you love the new dog.....in a different way. And that's ok. Nothing can replace what you had with the first dog, but I think you'll find that the new dog will work it's way into your heart.....you just have to give it time. Quote Paula & her pups--Paneer (WW Outlook Ladd), Kira & Rhett (the whippets)Forever in my heart...Tinsel (Born's Bounder - 11/9/90-12/18/01), Piper, Chevy, Keno, Zuma, Little One, Phaelin & WinnieGreyhound Adoption Center ~ So Cal rep for Whippet Rescue And Placement For beautiful beaded collars, check out my Facebook page: The Swanky Hound Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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