I understand. When we lost Polly a year after Chester, I felt as if someone had used a dull knife to rip my heart and lungs out. I too didn't know if I could handle losing another dog. However, 6 months later, I started seeing Chester laying in his favorite spots out of the corner of my eye. It felt as if he was trying to tell me that it was time to put my grief aside and help another dog in need. (He was a lab blend that was a true rescue.) I consider Sirocco, Nikki and Yukon an honor to his and Polly's memory. However, only you can decide what is right for you.