Thing is, Dr. Couto came right out and said if she were his dog he'd treat her with chemo. I didn't ask, he volunteered that.
The vet from University of Guelph who was tending to Loca actually argued with me about my decision to let her go. She completely disagreed with me. I my case, both Loca and I knew what had to be done.
I know how hard it is. For at least a week prior to Loca's death (probably even longer; that period of time is an awful blur), I was posting in health and medical constantly. Everything was so hard and so confusing. My brain said one thing while my heart said something else. I don't envy you at all. I hope you have somebody you can really discuss this with. Feel free to pm me if you want to talk or rant, or anything else which will help you deal with this crummy situation