I'm so so sorry for the pain you are feeling. I know it probably won't help very much at all at this moment when I say that I firmly beleive that Ted hasn't gone very far from you at all, it's just his furry casing that's no longer in sight, but the really important part of him - his soul - is right there with you and always will be.
BEYOND THE RAINBOW
As much as I loved the life we had
and all the times we played,
I was so very tired and knew my time on earth would fade.
I saw a wondrous image then
of a place that's trouble free,
where all of us can meet again to spend eternity.
I saw the most beautiful rainbow
and on the other side
were meadows rich and beautiful
lush and green and wide!
And running through the meadows
as far as the eye could see
were every sort of animal, as healthy as could be!
My own tired failing body was fresh and healed and new
and I wanted to go run with them
but I had something left to do.
I needed to reach out to you
to tell you I'm alright,
that this place is truly wonderful - then a bright glow pierced the night.
'Twas the glow of many candles
shining bright and strong and bold
and I knew then that it held your love in it's brilliant shades of gold.
For although we may not be together
in the way we used to be
we are still connected by a cord
that no eye can ever see.
So whenever you need to find me
we're never far apart
if you look beyond the rainbow
and listen with your heart.
(author unknown)