I have to admit that the top 10 foul words in the English language went through my head when I saw this thread. It is just so unfathomably unfair. I am hoping that no one asks why I am sitting at my desk in tears. The sad truth is that you will get through it because you have to. You will be strong for Peanut and for your husband and you will just keep going. Your post about losing Peanut's spirit really got to me. You won't lose her spirit. You will smile when you think of her and her antics. Maybe not for a bit but you will. You will find things around the house when you most need to do so. You will never, never, never lose Peanut's love or your love for her. I will hold you all very close to my heart and in my thoughts and prayers.