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  1. I'm so sorry that you've lost your precious Lacey. What a brave and beautiful girl she was, and she fought the good fight. I've followed her story and her battles, and was in awe of her indomitable spirit. Of course, having a Mom and Dad who loved her as much as you do, was a huge part of that fight. Your Dr. Greene was right---she was lucky to have her wonderful family. But you are right too---you clearly shared a love strong enough for her to send you a sign that she is safe, and running free from pain.

    Such a sad and difficult time for you and your family. Sending continued prayers for strength and healing.

  2. Pat, I've never met you or your magnificent Barbie Jade, but to me, the 2 of you stood out amongst the many people and hounds on Greytalk. You for your sage advice, humor and empathy when someone's heart was broken. And the Queen for being a true force to be reckoned with, a voice and personality so strong that you were able to translate her larger than life spirit so eloquently into human words. That comes from a deep understanding of a dog that you felt blessed to share your life with. You were able to share that with all of us, and we felt as if we knew her. While we can share your sorrow and shock, there is a part of her that belongs only to you, and a part of you that is hers forever. There will always be that bond, private and unique, that comes when a person and a dog are made stronger and better because they are together, because they so clearly have found who they were meant to be with.Your heart is broken now, and I know we all wish that there was something magic we could say or do to be of comfort or erase your pain. The suddenness makes it doubly hard. Though it may seem impossible now, I hope that in time that pain will be eased by knowing that she stayed with you as long as she could. Maybe a long illness or gradual decline would have given you some time to try to be emotionally prepared. But I wonder if she would have wanted that. Because it was in October that I lost Winnie, I can't help but think of my brave Queen, and how she left on her own terms, exactly the way she lived her life as much as possible. Winnie beat the monster, but when she couldn't do the things she'd fought so hard to continue doing, when her kidneys failed, she chose to leave us 2 days before we went to Dewey. Too proud to be seen as anything less than Queenly by her many admirers, she told us it was time. Maybe Barbie Jade felt that way too. She was an exceptional dog, and I hope that one day soon, your many precious memories will bring more smiles than tears.

  3. I'm so sorry you and your precious boy are having to go through this. I can totally understand how you are feeling. Such a shock to have a sudden break, and then have to deal with osteo too. It's difficult to get your mind around it. But I'm glad you've made a decision. As Dr. Feeman said, there is no pain med strong enough to overcome the pain of a broken leg, or the pain of osteo, the most painful of the cancers. Getting the leg off quickly will spare Christoffe that pain. There are lots of people here who will tell you about their dog's amputations, so please keep us up to date with his recovery, and how he's doing. Circle of Grey is a good place to go for advice as well as support too.

    Don't second guess your decision---you did the right thing. And try to get some sleep before he comes home!

    Sending prayers and white light for a successful surgery, and quick recovery.

  4. Karen, I'm so sorry you lost your sweet old man. Though your lovely tribute made me cry, it also brought a smile. How well you understood him, and how you loved him. He was exactly where he should have been, and you were all so blessed to have shared each other's lives.

     

  5. Oh, no! I'm so sorry you've lost your precious boy. How sad that you didn't have more time together. Thank-you for a beautiful tribute to a magnificent dog. He truly seemed exceptional, and I can understand how deeply you and Raven are feeling his loss. Knowing him as well as you did, and loving him so much, don't you think he'll send you someone to ease your pain, and help his sweet Raven to feel secure again? I'm sure he will.

     

  6. Carrier's pictures (well, this whole thread, actually) brought tears to my eyes. Not because they were graphic, but because he looks so wonderful, and you can just feel the love you share.

    And Dr. Couto---not only is he an exceptional vet, and amazingly generous, he's funny too!

    May the many prayers going out for you and your sweet boy lift your spirits, and hasten the healing process.

    Oh, I clicked on the Scooby link, and loved reading about your experience there. You lived my dream!

  7. Sherry---thanks for posting. Not to make you feel bad, but I've been checking here and GRTB about 10 times a day to see if there was any news! I was afraid that no news was bad news. I perhaps panic more than you do! Well, there, now that I've made you feel guilty, I'm encouraged by what the vet said. Seriously. I think what we have to do is assume that they are okay, so that we can be okay for them. Of course, I am the person who freaked out because Tess was vomiting for 2 days. I was sure it was a blockage or something horrible, so I actually snuck out of work to take her to the vets to find out that she was fine. I think she must have gotten into the cat litter! Non-clumping, but with some really tasty "treats".

    Harley, just have sweet jumping dreams for a while. :offwall Don't do this!

  8. I know how you're feeling. Though it's hard, please try not to let your sadness overshadow the miracle of your time together now. He is living in the moment, and knows how much he is loved. Though a Mom's intuition is strong, I hope you and Max have much more quality time together.

  9. Oh, Sherry, I can feel your fear and concern. And I can understand it. I'm exactly the same way. Usually tending to over-react, but then thinking that many times my fears have been justified. I'm not going to tell you not to worry (well, you can TRY not to), but when we're afraid something is wrong, and we don't know what it is (or are afraid of what we THINK it is), it just consumes all of our thoughts. So, even if it is NOT what you are dreading most, you're going to worry till you find out. We are all sending out prayers and white light to you and Harley, and hoping that he is fine. He's such a dear, happy, innocent guy, filled with such joy just to be here. It would be unbearable to think of him being sick. I'm sorry I missed seeing you at Dewey. And I haven't been on the GRTB board as much as before. I just haven't managed to find my "voice" since my precious Queen went to the Bridge. So please check in here too, if you can. There is a lot of support. And let us know how your sweet Court Jumper is doing.

    Hugs,

    Nancy

  10. Trish, I'm so sorry you've lost your precious boy. I know your heart is breaking. Don't worry that you haven't written his beautiful tribute yet. I said on CoG that we have already seen part of that tribute, by being able to share this very special boy, and by seeing the love that you brought to each other's lives. That is a tribute to Peatie that will live on as long as he is remembered by the many people who's lives he touched.

  11. Oh, Darcy...I'm so, so sorry it's osteo. I think it's good you've decided to continue with your own vet for the chemo---easier in many ways. I too would not hesitate to suggest a consult with Dr. Couto. You will know how to approach your vet with those feelings. Have you asked your vet to consult about the possibility of using artemisinin as well---this may have been discussed earlier in the thread, but I couldn't remember. If they are positive, it's truly worth a shot.

    Sending good thoughts, and wishing the best for Darcy and for you.

  12. I voted that I would rather know. Either way is heartbreaking, though I agree with dogrunner04, who said that it may be easier if they give some sense that they are ready. I think if you have a choice, and you know you should do the unselfish thing, and not keep them alive simply because you can't bear to let them go, then at least you have given them that final gift.

    I've had many, many dogs and cats (working for vets and animal shelters for 27 years makes it an occupational hazzard!), so I've lost many. Of course, it's never easy, but I've gotten to the point where I'm a tiny bit more realistic, and try to make our time together as meaningful as possible, remembering that they aren't dreading that future sadness, and they are only knowing NOW---safety, comfort and love.

    For me, when it is sudden---and I've had a heart hound (Nick) and heart cat (Daphne) that left me VERY suddenly---that shock ramps up the intensity of grief to whole new level. Not only was I dealing with their loss, but also with the feeling that my heart had suddenly been ripped out without warning. I was in no way prepared---mentally, emotionally, ANY way. I remember feeling absolutely desolate. Abandoned, angry, confused, even guilty, and feeling their absence so powerfully that is was an actual physical pain.

    Other losses, while not really expected, came as less of a shock because of their age or illness. With Winnie, we knew, of course, that we would lose her. We always thought it would be to the osteo. But the stubborn old girl beat it, and in the end, it was her kidneys that stopped working. And she told me it was time---as surely as if she had spoken the words. So though I miss her greatly every day, I do find comfort in knowing that she left on her own terms, with everyone knowing that she had beaten the monster! And that can make me smile.

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