I am so very sorry. :grouphug Please don't beat yourself up we have no idea, we hear the thoughts in our head but we bluff them off. I had similar thoughts with my Champ and I still took him to get his dental, he died 10-days, later he never came back to himself after the dental and even though he had got a clean bill of health he had a tumor that popped in his stomach.When we get these thoughts we don't want to believe them, I know, but they would never want to see us unhappy...