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Millies Mom, It makes sense to me. We just lost Floydieboy two weeks ago and I was miserable. I didn't eat and absolutely wanted nothing to do with Christmas. Boy, DH was not happy with me. So for an early gift, he surprised me with Lyiddy, our new grey. She has been a great distraction. At first it was so hard to look at her while she laid there. I would cry and think of Floyd. But now it is getting easier. However, I do compare her to Floyd quite often and that is something I am trying to stop. She in many ways, is like Floyd, but in many ways she is not. She catches on pretty quick, where Floyd seemed to be a bit more-shall I say- doggie attention deficit disorder. He was big, fast and agile. She is small, fast and a complete clutz. So we laugh about the differences now. But at night when I go to bed, I kiss Liddy goodnight and then I climb into bed and that is Floyd's time. I think about him and try to talk to him. I ask him to help Liddy with all these new things that she is experiencing. And I tell Liddy, ask Floyd to help you when she is stressed. My biggest fear is that we will forget Floyd. We won't. Losing him was like losing an arm. But Liddy, like I said before, is a good distraction. I knew we would get another grey, I just never imagined it would be so soon. But for me, it has helped. Try to keep your head up through the holidays. It sounds like everything you are going through is pretty normal. It sounds like Millie had a wonderful life with you....Also, the support I received both here, from friends and neighbors and from other internet groups-really made me feel good, like I was normal to be such a wreck. It has been so amazing the support we have gotten with Floyd. I just don't think other breeds of dogs have people like us! ((((((hugs))))))

I just got word that Floyd did indeed have cancer of the spleen, hemangiosarcoma (?sp) and it had spread to the liver and possibly further. It was good news though. I had prayed that if it were cancer that he be taken peacefully and my prayers were answered. For some reason, I feel much more at peace now.

Bj, I echo your sentiments. I feel quite close to folks on the board here as well. It was so hard to get back onto the board. But I missed it so much! I can now read some of the m ore generic posts. You are right, people here get the fact that we will go to the ends of the earth for our babies and don't give us a bit a grief for it! Maybe we could have a GT gathering somewhere someday! It has been so wonderful to meet other GT'ers, live in person. I really felt like I already knew Kelly (lovin'greys), BJ (bjnno1) and Shelby. You guys are very good friends and ones that I hope I will know for a long time (we move a lot). Thanks for posting your heartfelt feelings!

Oh Millie's mom, that is so nice...... I had not heard of that. I will check it out tonight. I find it so hard to even look at my username and Floyd's avatar. I thought about changing it but I don't want to act too impulsively..... I am sorry about Millie. Really, I know noting I can say will make it hurt less so I will send hugs your way ((((()))))).

Iberia's mom, I think it takes time to love again. When I lost my first dog, I could never imagined getting another dog. My boyfriend at the time did, and it did help. Maybe traditional therapy would help him as well. Talk to him, how long has it been since kitty has been gone? Tell him that animals as well as humans thrive on love. I really think in time he will come around...

I am very glad this forum was added. I just couldn't get back onto GT and look at all the happy posts. But GT took up such a huge part of my day. I would be on the computer and Floyd would lay next to me on his couch. Not only do I have the void where Floyd was but a void where I used to use GT!!! Then, I quit the alley cats thing, so I have too much free time now. Geesh, it is feast or famine... Anyway, a special person reached out to me and told me about a Yahoo group called circle of greys and it is a site that offers support for those of you coping with ill dogs or a bereavement of a dog. That is what gave me the idea to put another forum onto this board. Thank you GT Admin. Three things that have helped me through this devastation are: 1. I had a major pity party... 2. support from family, friends and cyber friends and 3. was talking to a animal communicator. It is now Monday and I survived going back to work. The morning was very hard. I had no energy and I felt terrible. I have't really eaten in a week, so I had to start that again. I am feeling stronger both physically and emotionally. DH, is trying to cope. He is feeling differently than me. He wants to wait to get another dog and I don't. I am trying to see if we can get two! Then I won't have guilt about working and one dog being alone (well we have 4 cats to entertain them). Anyway, thank you everyone for your loving support. I miss reading about you. But I am still not ready to read each and every post.

Ugh, now that is a tough one..... very tragic..... Did you get another grey?

Thank you for putting this topic up. I think it will help many. We are slowly starting to heal here....need lots more time.