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Aston Left One Year Ago This Morning, At 9:20A.m.


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It has been a year as of 9:20a.m. today since you passed away, and what a year it has been. It feels like it was a long time ago, and no time at all. I am usually okay, I see people out walking their dogs, but those dogs are just dogs. Today, a woman strode past me on-campus with her petite dark-brindle greyhound alongside her, and I felt it in my chest. You were different. You were our giant cat-dog, and oh, how we loved you. You were my first dog, my heartbound project in loving and caring, and eventually convalescent caring, and inevitably, my hard lesson in letting go.
I wish I would let myself just grieve and miss you, but I'll keep keeping busy instead.

Aston, aka Coldwater Barzee, aka Dog
January 19, 2003 - July 27, 2014

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Big hugs as you remember your sweetheart.

 

Rest well, Aston.

Star aka Starz Ovation (Ronco x Oneco Maggie*, litter #48538), Coco aka Low Key (Kiowa Mon Manny x Party Hardy, litter # 59881), and mom in Illinois
We miss Reko Batman (Trouper Zeke x Marque Louisiana), 11/15/95-6/29/06, Rocco the thistledown whippet, 04/29/93-10/14/08, Reko Zema (Mo Kick x Reko Princess), 8/16/98-4/18/10, the most beautiful girl in the whole USA, my good egg Joseph aka Won by a Nose (Oneco Cufflink x Buy Back), 09/22/2003-03/01/2013, and our gentle sweet Gidget (Digitizer, Dodgem by Design x Sobe Mulberry), 1/29/2006-11/22/2014, gone much too soon. Never forgetting CJC's Buckshot, 1/2/07-10/25/10.

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Unforgettable boy. :grouphug

Old Dogs are the Best Dogs. :heartThank you, campers. Current enrollees:  Punkin. Annie Oooh M. 

Angels: Pal :heart. Segugio. Sorella (TPGIT). LadyBug. Zeke-aroni. MiMi Sizzle Pants. Gracie. Seamie :heart:brokenheart. (Foster)Sweet. Andy. PaddyALVIN!Mayhem. Bosco. Bruno. Dottie B. Trevor Double-Heart. Bea. Cletus, KLTO. Aiden.

:paw Upon reflection, our lives are often referenced in parts defined by the all-too-short lives of our dogs.

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I was so lucky to run into both of you, we were both at the vet for out boys, Carl and Aston. I never thought they would be gone so quickly. Aston was so handsome, quietly regal. How are you doing?

Sunsands Doodles: Doodles aka Claire, Bella Run Softly: Softy aka Bowie (the Diamond Dog)

Missing my beautiful boy Sunsands Carl 2.25.2003 - 4.1.2014

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A beautiful remembrance post. Aston is so handsome and love the earsies. He wil be with you always. Love is energy-the most powerful force in the universe actually. It cannot therefore be destroyed by death or anything else. :grouphug:f_white

"The love is bigger than the pain. I know your heart is breaking terribly. But I promise you that your pain will subside over time, and our love, our love not only will survive, it will be stronger. Someday the horrible pain will be a memory of deep sadness but our love will still be vibrant and alive. Love is always bigger than pain. When you are hurting, reach for the love and I promise you will feel better."-Sent from a bridge angel

 

"For love is as strong as death....
Many waters cannot quench love, nor can the floods drown it.
If a man would give for love all the wealth of his house, it would be utterly despised."

-Song of Solomon 8:6-7

 

"Some animals...leave a trail of glory behind them.
They give their spirit to the place where they have lived,
and remain forever a part of the rocks and streams and the wind and sky."

- Marguerite Henry

 

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:grouphug Anniversaries are hard. I have one coming up next month.

Cynthia, & Cristiano, galgo
Always in my heart: Frostman
Newdawn Frost, Keno Jet Action & Chloe (NGA racing name unknown), Irys (galgo), Hannah (weim), Cruz (galgo), & Carly CW Your Charming

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"It came to me that every time I lose a dog they take a piece of my heart with them. And every new dog who comes into my life, gifts me with a piece of their heart. If I live long enough, all the components of my heart will be dog, and I will become as generous and loving as they are." -- Unknown

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Thank you so much, everyone. :grouphug:beatheart

I was so lucky to run into both of you, we were both at the vet for out boys, Carl and Aston. I never thought they would be gone so quickly. Aston was so handsome, quietly regal. How are you doing?


Carl was such a quiet, sweet boy. :beatheart It's so strange to think that he's gone, too. and time just keeps wearing on. :( how are you? how are your girls?

I've been doing a lot of crying. With all that transpired in the past year, especially immediately after Aston's death, I never let myself face the loss, I had so many other things to distract myself with. I'm just starting to reach a point where "but I just have to do xxxx" isn't cutting it anymore, and it hits me out of nowhere -- while driving to work (if I'm lucky), or when I am out shopping for housewares or something else that is unrelated... even at work, ugh.

I saw my therapist yesterday, and we talked about me not letting myself grieve. among other life regrets, I am fighting with regret about not picking up on Aston's condition sooner so that I perhaps could have treated with physical therapy first. I told myself that I was going to do everything I could for him once I found out what was happening, and once the scale shifted too far toward diminishing returns on treatment and teetering quality of life, I would not waver in releasing him. I followed through with both of those :( but I still wonder what I could have done differently.

My therapist gently communicated that he wishes for me the peace that will come when I cease to hope for a better past.
but for now, I'll let myself cry.

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