Still Dreaming Of My Bridge Pup

[Guest mygracefulpooch]

While on vacation in NH last week I was alone. I was with family but no DH and no hounds. I needed the rest and relaxation so that is why I chose not to take the pups. DH had no vacation time left so we decided that I should go away. My babes were with their papa so no worries.

My folks have a house in Seabrook NH...and yes we are only about 20 minutes from the track. Growing up we always went to see the puppies run. The family does not go anymore...gee, I wonder why??

So I guess the pups where on my mind because of the heat and the racing and stuff so one morning I woke up crying from a dream. I dreamt of my Grace (who went to the bridge in Dec.)

I dreamt that I went to the track to just see the pups and I found a dog that looked just like her and when I met her, she responded to the name Grace and acted like she remembered me. I begged the trainer for me to have her and explained everything and they gave her to me...strange dream I know.

But in the dream when I got home, this new dog rememebered everything and everyone...like she was reincarnated. It was so strange and my heart still hurts, even more because I want her back sooooo bad. I mean I really want her back.

I have 2 amazing greys now and love them with all my heart but why can't I let Grace go and rest in peace. I miss her so much everyday..I am tempted to take all her photos down and put them away because when I pass them, I gently touch her sweet little face and start to cry. ( i am crying now just thinking of it)

Dh tells me to let her go but I can't. When will the hurt go away and the acceptance set in?

[Guest mdquaglia]

We lost Casino to cancer last October. Casino was definitely my heart dog. I was out of work when we helped Casino across the bridge, which turned out to be for the best, because I was a mess for a week.

 

Shannon and I decided, after we lost Casino, that it would be best if we wait until we have a house, before we adopted another grey. Well, last week, I heard about a 10 y.o. little fawn girl that was being returned to our rescue group. I felt like Casino told me it was time to find another grey.

 

Brassy, the little fawn girl, had not yet been returned to the kennel, and she was already spoken for if and/or when she did return. Our kennel director suggested that we look into adopting Maggie. So, we agreed to let Copie meet Maggie, to see if she would make a good playmate for him. Maggie is a 7 y.o. white and black girl who was returned, because her owner died.

 

Maggie is in our home now.

 

It turns out that Casino and Maggie were at the track, in the same kennel, with the same trainer sometime between 1996 and 1998. So, they probably knew each other. Maggie has many of the same mannerisms as Casino. I am convinced that Casino sent Maggie to us. Last night [our first night with Maggie at home] I felt a sense of closure to Casino's passing.

 

I guess the moral to my long story is that, in my case, getting another grey that needed us as much as we needed her, has helped to really fill the void that Casino left. I know that Casino approves. That's why he sent Maggie to us.

[Guest mygracefulpooch]

That is so sweet. Thank you for sharing.

[patricia]

I wonder if the hurt and ache in our hearts ever really leaves us...sending hugs your way.

[Guest BrockGusDad]

Not strange at all.

 

Pictures and memorabilia of Brock still occupy a prominent place in my living room. In fact I added to them yesterday-- I received a beautiful jasper (gemstone of remembrance) bracelet in memory of "The Commander" from a friend on another grey board. Attached is a sterling silver charm: NAVY. Why Navy? It relates to my corner curio of pictures and memoribila of my departed daughter from the Naval Academy.

Take them down? Not for me.

 

There is no rule or reason that you have to let her go.

Grieving does not end, it just softens...

[Batmom]

mygracefulpooch, my neighbors would still cry a year after losing their heart dog. There is no shame in grief, and no timeline. You'll always love your girl .... Give yourself time. Perhaps, in another six months, you'll have just 3 tears and one small smile when you see her picture .... (((((((((hugs))))))))

 

 

mdquaglia, What a beautiful tribute to both your Casino and your Maggie! Blessings to all of you.

Edited July 15, 2003 by Batman's mom

[Guest Gale]

We lost Ibis last October and I still cry because I miss him so much. I love Griffy and Orion with all my heart, but Ibis was our special boy. I also do what you do each time I pass a picture of our sweet boy. I touch his face and talk to him, hoping he can hear me. I don't know when the hurt will go away but each day I get a little better, I think, although I'm crying while I write this. Angel Whispers contacted Ibis for us and I feel that her reading helped us a lot.

[MilliesMom]

You never truly let go. You only learn to live without their physical presence.

We still have Millie's pictures everywhere...and the big bag of Millie's food in the kitchen, and I don't have the heart to throw the food away or take the pictures down, and it's been 11 months. I still cry sometimes, too.

It's not that you're not letting Gracie rest in peace. It's that the bond between you is so strong that even death can't break it. That bond will always be very special.

Everytime I think that Mil will be gone a year next month and that it's time to toss out her food, I just can't. I still have her favorite bear and her collar and tags around it and her Odie bowl, but I've yet been able to throw out anything of hers.

[Guest Tory]

Lisa...i rmember Grace and your posts about her and the reason you still miss her so much is beacuse your perfectly human and she was a real sweetheart Dont take her pics down if you dont want to...it symbolises that she is still with you...believe me she is ((hugs))