That is so true. My husband said I was giving Mercury an easy life and I said, "that's my job". The void left by his passing seems massive and I know it will take a long time to heal.
The time in between his osteo diagnosis and his passing (12 days) was filled with anger, lots of anger, and sadness. I know it was the grief process starting. Who knows when it will end. I figure it will just suck in the meantime and I get on with things.